Truth be told, my computer blues are just the outward symptom of other underlying issues--I would rather not be doing the things that I am supposed to be doing. In fact, it was just as I was attempting to view a YouTube video (instead of working on my syllabus for Saturday) that the crashes began. Ironically, the video was "Better Days" by Dianne Reeves and I was trying to watch it for comfort (a lot of crap piled on my plate right now). And then I got the brilliant idea to post it to the BBW blog. Well, after spending the last couple of hours and a few $$ trying to download the right driver to keep the computer from crashing, here goes:
And the point of this exercise gets us to the Word of Wisdom for today, which is hope. No matter how unproductive, self-loathing, and wasteful today was for me, there is always the hope that tomorrow will be better. And here are a few of my other hopes: that I don't chuck this machine out of a window; that I am stronger than the drama that threatens to drive me insane; that eventually I will have enough money to do what I need to do so that I can focus on a few things that I want to do; that the people I love who are going through changes will find their way through; that the forces of evil will not triumph over those for good; and that one day, I can find the 'peace' that is supposed to come from taking yoga class.